midnightstar

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alisa,
rean

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Since graduating from the Academy, life has been..interesting for Alisa, to say the least. She's been kept very busy, since she was upholding her promise to her mother on showing her the proper way to run the company, and it wasn't easy to put in those changes. Though it would have been a lot harder if she didn't have the support of those around her. But because of that, she hadn't been able to get time to get to visit Rean as much as she liked.

Translation: As much as she liked = every day. She did get to visit - or vice versa - at least on the weekend, and she talked to him almost every night thanks to the range on the ARCUS. Just as finished up for the night, she made her way up to the penthouse, glancing around to make sure she was alone (And you never know with Sharon) in order to take out her ARCUS once more and see if she could get a hold of Rean before bed. She was planning on seeing if he was in the area - alternatively, she was sure she could get away for a visit, if he wasn't busy.

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"I guess you're right. Still..." She didn't think she'd be able to focus for a while on things. Sacrificing her happiness with Rean just to restore the Company's image was too great a price as far as she was concerned.

Walking with Rean at this point was a drastic change from the previous days she left the company with him, and the staff currently posted would definitely notice the difference. Alisa was clinging even closer to Rean, though more in a desperate hold to stay close than her natural cling of pure adoration.

AT this point anone other than Sharon would no longer have any room for doubt as to what kind of person Rean was for their beloved lady. Still Rean couldn't bring himself to point out this fact to Alisa since she clearly was so very loathe to see him go.

"Just stay your course. You have something really solid to build up on."

"I couldn't have thought about it if it weren't for you. So you should take at least partial credit for him." She.. was totally not acknowledging the existence of anyone other than h im and Sharon. This was just a very very slow walk to the train station, and the closer to it they got, the tighter she held his arm.

"Alright I suppose that is fair." Rean relented with a soft sigh. He had merely provided the inspiration. Most of the work had all been Alisa and her team. Still if it helped make her feel a bit better about the project, he could take the credit he was due at least.

Rean did certainly notice the looks they were getting but given he had no idea when he was going to be with Alis again, he just blocked it all out.

She just wanted him to be as much a part of things as she could! Being her inspiration for cute little Rumu was every bit as important. "Sorry, I'm being stubborn again, aren't I?" She didn't sound very sorry though - and like Rean, she was more or less blocking out any glances that she was getting while she leaned into him as they walked. You'd think they were walking to an executioner though.

He could respect that. Being included in such a manner was extremely heartwarming and flattering. When Alisa asked him, Rean just chuckled softly before leaning a little closer to her cheek.

"You are but that's just another reason why I fell for you." Yes he just said that and without even the lightest hesitation.

Just twist that 'knife' a little deeper, Rean. Make it even harder for her to let go. Evern though yeah, he's not doing it on purpose or anything, but Alisa lets out a soft noise, a breathless laugh. "Oh... Rean..~"

It was so flattering hearing him say things like that, especially when she knew he was 300% sincere, but it also hurt when she was going to part from her beloved as well. She slipped her arm from around his to wrap around him in a one armed hug, leaning more into him.

As if it was any easier for him. Saying all these things out loud only reinforced them to Rean's own mind as well. Still to be able to see her this happy even now at the end was more of a reward than he'd dared to hope for.

He pulled her in closer to his side rather than let her hug him just of her own initiative. The station still drew with slow yet steady steps and somewhere in the distance Rean could make out the sound of the train as it rolled down the track.

So far, Alisa was doing a good job of keeping herself from breaking into tears, even if she did press more into him when she heard the whistle of the train. Behind them Sharon walked in silence, smiling should anyone around them glance their way, but for the most part, she was troubled, watching the couple walk closer to their inevitable fate. "... it ... sounds like it's pretty close.. doesn't it?"

Rean was holding up a bit better but only because he was used to bottling up his feeling about things to an unhealthy extent. SO it was nothing to really praise him for. Even while his heart felt like it was being slowly torn in two with each step the took towards the station.

"Mmm...yeah. The new models that have been coming out recently are even faster than the ones we used back when we first went to Thors." Technology was progressing in the world so fast. First airships, then trains and tanks. Next came the soldats that had become the standard of the imperial army. Technology was connected to the blood of the empire itself. That's why to prevent that technology from becoming the worst kind of poison, Alisa needed to stay her her course.

Even so...he really truly didn't want to leave. And the way he pulled Alisa closer and closer conveyed that simple fact.

"Y..yeah... I've heard about some of the latest models.." Alisa would have loved to be able to argue being able to stay her course at his side, or in Trista, but ... she knew at best, she wouldn't be able to do more than a short visit here and there. Things were too touch and go still, and the company wasn't yet safe enough to leave on its own, even with her mother and grandfather having their hands full.

Even so.. she didn't want him to go. If she was simply letting him go where he could live in peace with Valimar, as an instructor or something like he mentioned, she would deal with it much more easily, but knowing he was being manipulated into fighting when he didn't want to... when he just wanted to live his own life.

She actually balked when they came to the archway to the station. The moment they passed through.. and yet she could see the train pulling into the station and she fought back a soft sob.

The reaction as she realized they had entered the station was even more heartbreaking than the trip here was. He was hurting Alisa horribly with this and yet he had no argument to stop her from doing this in the first place. Hurting the one he loved so much. Was that all he could do?

Rean slowly put his free hand up against her arm to keep her hugging onto him even as the cleared the ticket booth. After all with his position he didn't need tickets when Claire was coming over to pick him up in person. Rean tilted his head to the side and tried to peer at Alisa, bracing for what he was going to see now that they were moments away from being torn apart.

Some of the people staffed in the station were too busy staring at the fancy train to notice the couple in emotional distress. Alisa tightened her grip on Rean when she felt him put his hand against her arm, but she kept her head low a moment or two. Closing her eyes as she struggled to compose herself. She wanted to see him off with a smile so she wouldn't end up hurting -him-.

The door to the first cabin on the train slid open as the pair approached, and Claire stepped out glancing around, though when she spots Rean and Alisa, she quickly turns away to talk to an engineer, allowing them a little bit more privacy.

Alisa was practically trembling in Rean's arms with the effort of holding back her tears, but she did eventually manage to look up at him with a weak, sad excuse of a smile. "..w.....well..." she took a breath. "This is it..."

Your average person might miss the way Claire busied herself with something else but Rean noticed and for a moment he was very thankful for her consideration. That of course did very little to sooth Alisa, whose trembling was being conveyed loud and clear thorugh the hold she had on his arm. The smile she showed him was a decent attempt and rather than point out the truth, he just let it slide while he slowly brought his hands up to hold Alisa's holding them both between each other as he stared back into those eyes with an apologetic and hopefully as ngenuine as he could muster, smile.

"Yeah so it is. We still have the Arcus at least."

She squeezed his hands tightly as she gave him a slow nod, though not partiularly confident. The ARCUS was a poor replacement for the real thing. "Yeah... at least." .... she steps forward abruptly to tug her hands out of his grip and hug him a tightly as she could, clenching her teeth as a few small almost sobs slip out before she chokes them back quickly, her breathing more ragged with the effort.

Claire can delay only so long though, and when her conversation with the engineer had exhausted itself, she awkwardly turned back to glance at Rean and Alisa, knowing she had to interrupt, but really, REALLY not wanting to.

He knows it's a poor replacement but it's all he has to offer to make up for the shitty situation he was in. Even so while Alisa's resolve finally buckled, Rean didn't hesitate to put his arms around her, pulling ALisa against his chest as smuch as he could manage while he spoke softly against her ear.

"I will come back to you. No matter what happens." He promised without any kind of jest or joke in tow. He looked out of hte corner of his eye and saw Clair hesitate to ruin the moment.

Darnit she ruined her own promise. And as she hears his words, his promise spoken softly, he'd hear a soft choked off sob as she buried her face against his chest, her voice cracking, "..I'm sorry.. I'm sorry," was all she could manage to stay for the first few attempts at speech, "I wanted to see you off more... more pleasantly than this, ...but I..I can't help it.." Sorry about the shirt, Rean, it was definitely starting to get damp from tears she couldn't hold back.

Sharon and Claire were certainly exchanging glances at this point, and when Alisa's shoulders trembled with the silent sobs, Claire actually glanced away uneasily. Even if her hands were tied because of her refusal to turn against Rean's father, it didn't make it any easier, when Rean and Alisa and their friends did so much for the country. And this was their reward.

Rean closed his eyes as Alisa finally broke and his chest quickly started feelign the wetness from her tears. He knew this would happen. He Never really believed Alisa would be able to see him off with a smile. She was too gentle and loving to be able to give such a composed send off. So rather than blame her for it, Rean gently squeezed her even closer, his face tucking neatly against her neck while he just allowed her to vent.

Alisa had tried so very hard though! ..but it was all in vain, and with Rean holding her close, she freely sobbed - not like she could stop herself anyway. No, the tears came freely and unrestrained, but she managed to keep her deepest thoughts to herself. Let me come with you, stay with me - they were on the tip of her tongue and she couldn't bring herself to say them. Instead she sobbed his name, softly until Sharon finally stepped forward, placing Rean's luggage on the ground as she reached out to touch Alisa's shoulders, "My lady.." It was just as hard for Sharon to see Alisa like that, much like it was likely hard for Rean to - but she also knew Alisa had to let Rean go. The Enforcer, as she did this, glanced up over Alisa's head to Rean with a slight, sad little smile.

Rean was somehow barely managing to keep it together. Hearing Alisa cry like this was sundering his heart in two and he really didn't want to make her any sadder by showing that to her as well. He caught that look from Sharon and slowly nodded before slowly pulling back only to bring his lips against Alisa's forehead.

"Alisa."

She could feel Sharon's hands on her shoulders, and struggled to ger herself under control again, even as she heard Rean say her name. Stop being selfish Alisa - she struggled visibly against a fresh slew of sobs, forcing herself to let go of him and taking a few deep breaths.

Why did it have to hurt so much? It hurt more any any injury she took in battle. She quickly rubbed at her eyes, brushing away the tears as she whispered a hoarse, "I know.. I know you have to go." She sniffled once more and gave a deep sigh, "I... I can do this..." She took a step backwards with Sharon holding her shoulders reassuringly. Because Alisa felt like pulling forward and latching onto Rean again, as if it could keep him from leaving. "This isn't goodbye.." She just didn't know WHEN She'd see him again.

Thankfully sharon was there and back at her home, Rumu would be as well. With those two major elements he felt some comfort in leaving Alisa behind. But her words catch in his throat for a moment before he slowly nods his head.

"Of course. I will see you again. I wouldn't break that promise at least." Other he'd broken because circumstances dictated that he must with no regard for his own feelings or will.

"I'll look forward to that day. WIth everythin I am~"

But who would Rean have? Alisa put a hand over her mouth at the confidence in Rean's words, and took another breath. Lowering her hand again, she nodded weakly, mustering a smile for him at the very least, "Y.. yeah. Me too." she stammered softly.

At which point Claire finally stepped forward, breaking the moment between then, "I'm sorry," she glanced between the two, "We have to go." Allowing him even this much time to say good bye was probably more than he would normally be given. She gave Alisa an apologetic glance, then nodded slightly to Rean before she stepped back and made her way onto the train.

Alisa closed her eyes looked down, determined to stay composed until Rean was on the train.

That smile must have been so painful for Alisa to manage just for him. Rean felt horrible for not having something to give Alisa before parting. But then he already had her claim his heart so really what more could he give?

He came back down to reality as Claire stepped up. He appreciated the time she offered to himself and Alisa. Even if it did little to quell the aching in his heart. Rean turned away at last and finally took the steps towards the door to the ttrain compartment. He didn't rush his departure and just as he was about to go through the door, the train's whistle sounded out signaling it was about to leave the station.

"I'll be back Alisa. Look after yourself. And after Rumu of course." HE would have told Sharon to look after Alisa but then she would do that without being asked. Still he stood just beyond the door watching Alisa and Sharon until the doors finally slid shut between him and the station platform. He could feel his knees start to buckle.

As tempted as she was to offer some small comfort to him, Claire knew that nothing she said would really make things even remotely all right. The most she could do was try to get some free time for Rean again when they were in the area. And though Rean didn't blame her, she couldn't help but feel at least partly responsible for the pain he was going through.

She might be the Icy Maiden, but she did have a heart for those she cared about, and she thought of Rean like a little brother. She was unused to the situation he was in, so she guarded herself with a cool, composed expression as she made her way into a different cabin from Rean's, to give him his privacy. Though she stood silently in the corridor a moment or two before making her way to the front of the train with a heavy sigh.

"Ha..haha," Alisa smiled weakly at mention of Rumu, "Of ..of course. And you take care of yourself too. And Valimar." She swallowed back the pain, "I love you," she added in a softer whisper he might not even hear. But she kept smiling, as long as she could, though the minute Rean turned his back, that smile was gone.

Sharon shifted her arms around Alisa in a tight hug, "Be strong, my lady." She whispered, "Just a little longer."

Alisa nodded mutely, her vision blurring as she felt the tears start to come again. Clapping her hands over her mouth to keep herself from calling out his name one more time, willing herself to stay put lest she run after him. Once Rean had vanished inside the train and the door slid shut, all the strength left her and she collapsed to her knees, with Sharon gently kneeling down behind her to hug her mistress when Alisa turned to cling to her instead.

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