midnightstar

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alisa,
rean

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Since graduating from the Academy, life has been..interesting for Alisa, to say the least. She's been kept very busy, since she was upholding her promise to her mother on showing her the proper way to run the company, and it wasn't easy to put in those changes. Though it would have been a lot harder if she didn't have the support of those around her. But because of that, she hadn't been able to get time to get to visit Rean as much as she liked.

Translation: As much as she liked = every day. She did get to visit - or vice versa - at least on the weekend, and she talked to him almost every night thanks to the range on the ARCUS. Just as finished up for the night, she made her way up to the penthouse, glancing around to make sure she was alone (And you never know with Sharon) in order to take out her ARCUS once more and see if she could get a hold of Rean before bed. She was planning on seeing if he was in the area - alternatively, she was sure she could get away for a visit, if he wasn't busy.

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Your average person might miss the way Claire busied herself with something else but Rean noticed and for a moment he was very thankful for her consideration. That of course did very little to sooth Alisa, whose trembling was being conveyed loud and clear thorugh the hold she had on his arm. The smile she showed him was a decent attempt and rather than point out the truth, he just let it slide while he slowly brought his hands up to hold Alisa's holding them both between each other as he stared back into those eyes with an apologetic and hopefully as ngenuine as he could muster, smile.

"Yeah so it is. We still have the Arcus at least."

She squeezed his hands tightly as she gave him a slow nod, though not partiularly confident. The ARCUS was a poor replacement for the real thing. "Yeah... at least." .... she steps forward abruptly to tug her hands out of his grip and hug him a tightly as she could, clenching her teeth as a few small almost sobs slip out before she chokes them back quickly, her breathing more ragged with the effort.

Claire can delay only so long though, and when her conversation with the engineer had exhausted itself, she awkwardly turned back to glance at Rean and Alisa, knowing she had to interrupt, but really, REALLY not wanting to.

He knows it's a poor replacement but it's all he has to offer to make up for the shitty situation he was in. Even so while Alisa's resolve finally buckled, Rean didn't hesitate to put his arms around her, pulling ALisa against his chest as smuch as he could manage while he spoke softly against her ear.

"I will come back to you. No matter what happens." He promised without any kind of jest or joke in tow. He looked out of hte corner of his eye and saw Clair hesitate to ruin the moment.

Darnit she ruined her own promise. And as she hears his words, his promise spoken softly, he'd hear a soft choked off sob as she buried her face against his chest, her voice cracking, "..I'm sorry.. I'm sorry," was all she could manage to stay for the first few attempts at speech, "I wanted to see you off more... more pleasantly than this, ...but I..I can't help it.." Sorry about the shirt, Rean, it was definitely starting to get damp from tears she couldn't hold back.

Sharon and Claire were certainly exchanging glances at this point, and when Alisa's shoulders trembled with the silent sobs, Claire actually glanced away uneasily. Even if her hands were tied because of her refusal to turn against Rean's father, it didn't make it any easier, when Rean and Alisa and their friends did so much for the country. And this was their reward.

Rean closed his eyes as Alisa finally broke and his chest quickly started feelign the wetness from her tears. He knew this would happen. He Never really believed Alisa would be able to see him off with a smile. She was too gentle and loving to be able to give such a composed send off. So rather than blame her for it, Rean gently squeezed her even closer, his face tucking neatly against her neck while he just allowed her to vent.

Alisa had tried so very hard though! ..but it was all in vain, and with Rean holding her close, she freely sobbed - not like she could stop herself anyway. No, the tears came freely and unrestrained, but she managed to keep her deepest thoughts to herself. Let me come with you, stay with me - they were on the tip of her tongue and she couldn't bring herself to say them. Instead she sobbed his name, softly until Sharon finally stepped forward, placing Rean's luggage on the ground as she reached out to touch Alisa's shoulders, "My lady.." It was just as hard for Sharon to see Alisa like that, much like it was likely hard for Rean to - but she also knew Alisa had to let Rean go. The Enforcer, as she did this, glanced up over Alisa's head to Rean with a slight, sad little smile.

Rean was somehow barely managing to keep it together. Hearing Alisa cry like this was sundering his heart in two and he really didn't want to make her any sadder by showing that to her as well. He caught that look from Sharon and slowly nodded before slowly pulling back only to bring his lips against Alisa's forehead.

"Alisa."

She could feel Sharon's hands on her shoulders, and struggled to ger herself under control again, even as she heard Rean say her name. Stop being selfish Alisa - she struggled visibly against a fresh slew of sobs, forcing herself to let go of him and taking a few deep breaths.

Why did it have to hurt so much? It hurt more any any injury she took in battle. She quickly rubbed at her eyes, brushing away the tears as she whispered a hoarse, "I know.. I know you have to go." She sniffled once more and gave a deep sigh, "I... I can do this..." She took a step backwards with Sharon holding her shoulders reassuringly. Because Alisa felt like pulling forward and latching onto Rean again, as if it could keep him from leaving. "This isn't goodbye.." She just didn't know WHEN She'd see him again.

Thankfully sharon was there and back at her home, Rumu would be as well. With those two major elements he felt some comfort in leaving Alisa behind. But her words catch in his throat for a moment before he slowly nods his head.

"Of course. I will see you again. I wouldn't break that promise at least." Other he'd broken because circumstances dictated that he must with no regard for his own feelings or will.

"I'll look forward to that day. WIth everythin I am~"

But who would Rean have? Alisa put a hand over her mouth at the confidence in Rean's words, and took another breath. Lowering her hand again, she nodded weakly, mustering a smile for him at the very least, "Y.. yeah. Me too." she stammered softly.

At which point Claire finally stepped forward, breaking the moment between then, "I'm sorry," she glanced between the two, "We have to go." Allowing him even this much time to say good bye was probably more than he would normally be given. She gave Alisa an apologetic glance, then nodded slightly to Rean before she stepped back and made her way onto the train.

Alisa closed her eyes looked down, determined to stay composed until Rean was on the train.

That smile must have been so painful for Alisa to manage just for him. Rean felt horrible for not having something to give Alisa before parting. But then he already had her claim his heart so really what more could he give?

He came back down to reality as Claire stepped up. He appreciated the time she offered to himself and Alisa. Even if it did little to quell the aching in his heart. Rean turned away at last and finally took the steps towards the door to the ttrain compartment. He didn't rush his departure and just as he was about to go through the door, the train's whistle sounded out signaling it was about to leave the station.

"I'll be back Alisa. Look after yourself. And after Rumu of course." HE would have told Sharon to look after Alisa but then she would do that without being asked. Still he stood just beyond the door watching Alisa and Sharon until the doors finally slid shut between him and the station platform. He could feel his knees start to buckle.

As tempted as she was to offer some small comfort to him, Claire knew that nothing she said would really make things even remotely all right. The most she could do was try to get some free time for Rean again when they were in the area. And though Rean didn't blame her, she couldn't help but feel at least partly responsible for the pain he was going through.

She might be the Icy Maiden, but she did have a heart for those she cared about, and she thought of Rean like a little brother. She was unused to the situation he was in, so she guarded herself with a cool, composed expression as she made her way into a different cabin from Rean's, to give him his privacy. Though she stood silently in the corridor a moment or two before making her way to the front of the train with a heavy sigh.

"Ha..haha," Alisa smiled weakly at mention of Rumu, "Of ..of course. And you take care of yourself too. And Valimar." She swallowed back the pain, "I love you," she added in a softer whisper he might not even hear. But she kept smiling, as long as she could, though the minute Rean turned his back, that smile was gone.

Sharon shifted her arms around Alisa in a tight hug, "Be strong, my lady." She whispered, "Just a little longer."

Alisa nodded mutely, her vision blurring as she felt the tears start to come again. Clapping her hands over her mouth to keep herself from calling out his name one more time, willing herself to stay put lest she run after him. Once Rean had vanished inside the train and the door slid shut, all the strength left her and she collapsed to her knees, with Sharon gently kneeling down behind her to hug her mistress when Alisa turned to cling to her instead.

He heard those words. He wanted to return them in kind with promises of how he would come back to her. But he also knew if he stopped again to say those word it would only hurt them both even more. So he grit teeth, hearing Sharon's whisper. His senses were too sharp for his own good and now was the worst possible time for it. It was never going to get any easier was it? He was trapped and there was no way out at this point. As long as he had Valimar. As long as he was of USE to that monster running the empire.

He wished he could turn around and wave her off with a smile but knowing what he would see, he chose to not turn around and only once the train pulled out of the station did his composure finally break.

"I love you too...my dear Alisa." he murmured to no one asss shis head rested heavily against the wall opposite of the door while his frame hook with the overflowing emotions raging inside of him that he had contained up to the very last moment.

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