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How long has it been since the Holy Grail war ended? How many sleepless nights did she have, thinking about him..how she lost him? Oh sure, some might say that Shirou Emiya was there, and he was a more idealistic version of Archer...but they were completely different people. She'd be lying if she said she didn't have feelings for Shirou, but it was Archer who was constantly on her mind.
And a year passed with regrets unsaid and wishes unfulfilled, until she started wondering.. but what if...
What if she could summon him back without the Grail War being a factor? Nowhere could she find it that someone couldn't summon one of the Heroic Spirits into the world outside of the war, right...? She'd asked Shiro once about his opinion, hypothetically of course. Something like that never occurred to him - he was ..more well adjusted and happy with Rin's help, and he was keen to move on. Rin COULD have moved on, with him, but she would have always compared him to Archer, and that wasn't fair to either of them.
So they went their separate ways, still as friends, and while he went to England to study, she researched and she studied and she practiced in private over the next few years. Most of her summoning spells failed utterly - the timing was off, there wasn't enough mana provided - it was always something small she'd neglected. When her spells DID succeed it was never with the correct Spirit. She'd summoned a Lancer, a Rider, Saber... and the worst part was that she had summoned Archer a number of times. But not _HER_ Archer. Not the one who remembered her and those times hurt.
Trying to start over with a different Archer wasn't even an option. It was her Archer or no Archer...and that made things considerably harder. Maybe all of her failures were telling her that... she should give up on him. Move on.
Too bad Rin was too stubborn and 4 years hadn't made her any less so. If nothing else it made her MORE stubborn. And she was really going to give Archer a piece of her mind, not just for what happened during the war, but for putting her through all of this! Hmph. The 23 year old would be dressed quite differently from her usual attire.
"This is going to work. This is GOING to WORK." she muttered to herself as if sheer will could bring him to her when all the previous tries - with just as much will and determination - had failed. This time was different - she hoped, as she cast the spell to try and pull one specific spirit out of hundreds of of different versions of spirits. "Let this work and I'll never ask for anything else..."
And a year passed with regrets unsaid and wishes unfulfilled, until she started wondering.. but what if...
What if she could summon him back without the Grail War being a factor? Nowhere could she find it that someone couldn't summon one of the Heroic Spirits into the world outside of the war, right...? She'd asked Shiro once about his opinion, hypothetically of course. Something like that never occurred to him - he was ..more well adjusted and happy with Rin's help, and he was keen to move on. Rin COULD have moved on, with him, but she would have always compared him to Archer, and that wasn't fair to either of them.
So they went their separate ways, still as friends, and while he went to England to study, she researched and she studied and she practiced in private over the next few years. Most of her summoning spells failed utterly - the timing was off, there wasn't enough mana provided - it was always something small she'd neglected. When her spells DID succeed it was never with the correct Spirit. She'd summoned a Lancer, a Rider, Saber... and the worst part was that she had summoned Archer a number of times. But not _HER_ Archer. Not the one who remembered her and those times hurt.
Trying to start over with a different Archer wasn't even an option. It was her Archer or no Archer...and that made things considerably harder. Maybe all of her failures were telling her that... she should give up on him. Move on.
Too bad Rin was too stubborn and 4 years hadn't made her any less so. If nothing else it made her MORE stubborn. And she was really going to give Archer a piece of her mind, not just for what happened during the war, but for putting her through all of this! Hmph. The 23 year old would be dressed quite differently from her usual attire.
"This is going to work. This is GOING to WORK." she muttered to herself as if sheer will could bring him to her when all the previous tries - with just as much will and determination - had failed. This time was different - she hoped, as she cast the spell to try and pull one specific spirit out of hundreds of of different versions of spirits. "Let this work and I'll never ask for anything else..."
