"..alphen.." he would -had to say something so honest and genuine it just broke her heart. Because if she had her way, he wouldn't see her again. She pressed her hand over her mouth for a second to struggle with her own composure. "I..." No.. telling him wouldn't help things. It would only make them worse. "I think I hear Kisara calling you. You should see what she wants." She wasn't going to give him an opportunity to respond though, instead quickly walking away, needing to get as far away from him - and these troublesome thoughts - as possible. She needed to steel herself better or they would never finish their journey.